Omg.... I dont know what to do.

I really dont. Im all confused. i dont really know what to do about it. hahaha i am having guy issues because im stupid. I mean i like two guys and i cant figure out why i like the one but then again i cant figure out why i like the other one. But of course one will be leaving in august so i doesnt matter any way. and i'm madder than the hatter at the first one. The other problem with them first guy is that hes an ex. okay enough about guys and more on to work this weekend wast that bad until mark irritated me. I hate it when he sedns me home as often as he does. i cant stand it. and friday i was supposed to work until eight but i decided to go home so i could study. but i of course didnt tell him that. i was only schedueld to work until four so i left at four. and then the weeekend went from there. As far as home goes im not there. lol im not usually any way. i hate it there. anywho i have to get to work so ttyl guys. its not like your gonna read this again any way.

YAYNESS!!!!!! OH yeah lol

i got my year book today!!!!! i'm really excited about that. i have one from both years so far. next year i will be getting one as well. but its not that important to be blogging about. actually its the exact opposite. Its extremely important. at least it is to me. i like getting my signatures and stuff. and even the people who i dont talk to any more i will be getting thier signatures. and i will try to get those from the ones that might possibly even hate me. i dont care if they hate me as long as they arent trying to kill me im all good. i have made alot of friends this year and am happy to have to the ones that have been my friend through it all. And to those who have been my friends most of the year thank you. I am glad to have you as friends. lol its almost the end of the year and im pretty positive that i will be here next year. there is always a chance that i wont be though. But yayness to my friends and im going to get almost every one to sign my year book. Any how i gtg i have a project to do so yeah ttyl yalls

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! NO not again

i refuse to do something stupid like that again. next time i'm calling some one to come get me. i will not walk from victor to cripplecreek at one in the morning. that was not fun at all. and then friday that didnt go well either but it definately went better than saturday. i really will not talk about what happened on saturday. thats just not going to happpen, and sunday i wouldnt talk to any of my co-workers at all. and now i think one of them thinks i hate him. i didnt want to talk to any one i would say any thing to any one cuz i was being stupid as it was. but on the upside i made pretty good money this weekend considering i only worked two days. oh well i guess. cant really control things after they go bad. I do have a theory to why things have been as bad as they have been. but i wont say why because i think its totally stupid even though.

AWESOMENESS!!!!!

Yeah i had an awesome time saturday. i fell off the back of a dirt bike. that was so fun. i have little limp but that should be gone by the end of the week. i hope. the nurse lady that was at the b-day oarty said i should try and keep pressure off of it for a few days. but i refuse to see a freakin doctor and i think she knows me that well. she is insane if she thinks i'm going to follow orders. i'll be fine like i usually am lol but i think i did learn my lesson from that. dont try to adjust your helmet when the person is fishtailing with you on the back. i've never been on a dirt boke in my entire life so that was fun. HAHA but i made me think about some really stupid stuff and i really dont think i need to be thinking about it. but it just made me think and i couldnt help but keep thinking about it. i'm so stupid.

Prom for me.... oh joy

I didnt go to prom but i dont mind i guess some people had fun but other said the dj was drunk. I dont know but i think it wouldve been nice to keep my promise. but i didnt get my math grade up in time. im so dumb sometimes. and im even worse when it comes to guys. oh well i guess. you have to learn the lessons being taght and take each lesson to heart. otherwise your gonna be one hurtin unit. i suppose i shouldnt be talkin about it considering i wasnt there. i do know that next time i probably wont be going. i'll make sure i have to work and not tell any one at work about it so they dont bug out about it. I'd rather not go any way. I promised sadie i would go and i didnt because i was being stupid and didnt get my math grade up. Since the begining of the year i have been lacking in motivation. it's just not going well i guess. But I can say that i wouldve enjoyed going for some other reasons even though it probably wouldnt have been that way any way. its my fault im so dumb, lazy, and any other possible word for my self i can think of but cant really type for various reasons. i ruin every thing and i'm just not responsible enough to really do any thing that would benefit me. it doesnt matter any more because it is all over.

Uhhhh.... I cant really explain. crap!

I cant explain it. but i have thought that making friends is easier because when you lose a friend it hurts. i dont think we can all exactly say that we doing perfectly fine because there really is almost not possible fotr alot of us. i think if we can manage our lives so we are comfortable and not out of control then we should be able to succeed in our adult life. I guss it doesnt matter at this point. but i think it only matters if you care.

REALLY?!!!!! C0me 0n n0w. n0t c00l

How lame is when you can walk into a door you know is there? Not exactly the most entertaining but i do think it is easy to relive those moments when they tend to happen over and over again. All i need i the camera *click* But on the bright side i still havnt learned my lesson. Oh yeah and about prom i really cant say if im going or not but i would really like to. But i first need to get my math grade up by thursday. i really think that i need to work on getting to bed earlier because i dont seem to have any luck staying awake during first hour math. and whos idea was that any way? i dont think it was that great an idea to put math first hour when nine and half times out ten you will find at least four of them asleep during their math class in the morning. Its not exactly right to do that to us. i can already name four people who where asleep in my first hour math this morning. If i only wasnt having such a hard time with things and my ex. Next time i see him though i dont think i'll give him the chance to explain why he hit me. i think im going to straight up lay him out. BATLLE OF THE EX'S!!!!!!!!!!!!! and watch out all who i swatching i dont want to throw him into your knees. That crap hurts.

WOW! i have so much to talk about and im only in second hour. haha i wonder what kind of ear full poor ms barger is going to get. i dont know i dont usually plan what to say. But you know i think it mostly has to do with the fact that i am a sixteen year highschool girl and am more than likely going to talk than write but thyen again i dont really converse with the overly social kind of teen. Not that we have to many of them only because there are enough kids here that we can all say we're friends but dont only because we "claim cliqs" whatever people are naturally not going to like other people because of some dumb lame reason that no one really seems to get over. if any one could really ever get over then i think we wont have as many stuck up, snobby arrogant jerks.

And now for ex boyfriends and ex girlfriends. do tyou think that its not going to hppen? Believe it or not it is going to happen but i dont think thats a reason to A. talk crap about them behind their back. B. Hit them. C. Or try to insult them in public. Yes i am talking about the only two ex boyfriends i have that i dont at least talk to. Like when you walk out of class one thing you dont want to hear from an ex is that your not human and your ugly. All i have to say tp that is kiss it. What ever you say is not going to bug me. for what ever reason you still havnt let the fact that i broke up with you go is not going to change that fact. yes i broke up with you but i do feel that your overreacting and this crap talking me crap is going way to far. Its pretty bad that even my best friend thinks so. How ever when i was messaging you on myspace and i told you that i wanted to be you friend i wasnt lying. But you are pushing things way way to far. And that hitting thing just not cool. Do not doule up your fist to punch your ex unless your ready to take the consequences. from either her boyfriend or HER. My newest ex found this out the hard way. He punched me which i thank god he cant hit very hard only because when he hit me i wouldve been knocked a whole lot farther than i was. and i wouldnt have been able to judo him. flipping him when i was seeing double of every things was almost enough to make me sick. But still i thank god that he wasnt able to hit me any harder. But thats one of the thirteen golden rules for boys. Hitting is a felony. DON T DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i have to get to my class work so i suppose ttyl and this.........

is to be continued.....

yeah.....

i wasnt entierly sure that the ipad was that great an idea any way. i mean i think they are kind pushing their luck with the ipad. i was reading this article on yahoo and they were bashing the ipad left and right. It was almost as bad as me bashing twilight. it was ridiculus when i saw that freaking movie i wanted to bash my brains in. and before the movies were even being thought of i was reading the books over and over. they were good, but when they came out with the movie it was smashed. and any one who thinks down on me i dont give a crap!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have found that i like seeing how things go for me, instead of some one telling me what to do. i will do what i want when i want and "any one in power" has no right. it must be human nature to want power and be greedy cuz thats how this country and every other country is worked. strong ideals i know. but i dont care. i will continue thinking that any one who tries running my life doesnt deserve it. ALL TEACHERS..... i have a job and dont get off until late. you dont like i dont care. ms vader i dont approve.


.......Any way i just kinda think that people are expecting to much of a tiny little electronic and it just doesnt seem to be working very well. If you dont like it dont get it. I dont want one so im not getting one. i dont have to have it because it's new and every one has one. That kind of ideal is lame. plus there really isnt much it has that i need. i looks cool but i dont have time for it. those who do have entirly way to much free time. I just like the ipod because it's simple and i can drone out my nagging mother and cry baby dad. and that woukld be how i get through being at home. That ipad thing is a little wierd but it looks like there a quite a few people who like and so if they like i wont stop them.

My first blog

What's up guy's this is my new blog and i havnt really had much to say in a blog before. This week hasnt gone very well and my mother is going insane. i was supposed to hang out with some friends on friday and now i have to cancel those plans because i have to go get my permit and then have to go to work. after work i have to head to pueblo and go see how my grampa is doing and i understand that it is probably better that i make sure that he is doing okay because he is family and they alway always come first. But when you start screaming at me when i remind you that i wanted to go to a friends house im not going to cooperate very well. And i wont respond at all.
One rule i think shoiuld be changed is that we are not allowed in the library during lunch. i get yealled at becasue our oh so wonderful princeple decided that we arent even allowd outsiude the cafeteria. Look ms vader if you want to control us trying not being so freaking drastic. we might just might respond better. If i want to check my email during lunch i should be able to. or what if i want to pay off some fines. That isnt possible because i have stuff i have to do after shool. LIKE I HAVE A JOB and i tend to get in ttrouble when im late, kinda like this ridiculus school policies thing you have going on. Oh yeah and the school food sucks. i dont thuink that making toxic waste for lunch qulifies as a healthy lunch. Like there was this one day i got a school lunch and it happened to be soup. well i took a sip of soup and started choking on the excessive amount of freaking salt. it not only tasted horrible but i hurt going down and that is exactly why i started choking. And i want an actual sandwhich for lunch not some myshy piece of bread with dried up cheeze. Lunch ladies if you make some chili makie sure you pick out the twigs and stick and stuff because the crap is gross to be pulling out of your mouth.
And hey whats your thought on the whole thing. i mean every one has an opinion and im curious to hear it. i know what your going to ask about the school lunches though. if i hate them so much why do i keep gewtting them? well it happens to be because i have no other choice. i have tried bringing food from home and that didnt go very well. that day i didnt eat lunch because my class mates did. Oh yeah and thts another thing what if some one just so happens to not eat breakfast and MS. Vader goes through your locker to find food. i dont see how you can do that considering it is personal property and food doesnt hurt any one. If you havnt noticed a teens world is based on two things.... their stomache and video game. With some other they base it off of getting out of class as soon as possible. But i still dont see how our teachers can get away with tryin to take our food away. I just want ms vader to think about what it used to be like when she was a teen. even then femal and male teens would still eat like a pack of wolves. how does she get through to any one with that young adukt crap. But the talks to us like we are in kidergarten