Prom for me.... oh joy

I didnt go to prom but i dont mind i guess some people had fun but other said the dj was drunk. I dont know but i think it wouldve been nice to keep my promise. but i didnt get my math grade up in time. im so dumb sometimes. and im even worse when it comes to guys. oh well i guess. you have to learn the lessons being taght and take each lesson to heart. otherwise your gonna be one hurtin unit. i suppose i shouldnt be talkin about it considering i wasnt there. i do know that next time i probably wont be going. i'll make sure i have to work and not tell any one at work about it so they dont bug out about it. I'd rather not go any way. I promised sadie i would go and i didnt because i was being stupid and didnt get my math grade up. Since the begining of the year i have been lacking in motivation. it's just not going well i guess. But I can say that i wouldve enjoyed going for some other reasons even though it probably wouldnt have been that way any way. its my fault im so dumb, lazy, and any other possible word for my self i can think of but cant really type for various reasons. i ruin every thing and i'm just not responsible enough to really do any thing that would benefit me. it doesnt matter any more because it is all over.