Prom for me.... oh joy

I didnt go to prom but i dont mind i guess some people had fun but other said the dj was drunk. I dont know but i think it wouldve been nice to keep my promise. but i didnt get my math grade up in time. im so dumb sometimes. and im even worse when it comes to guys. oh well i guess. you have to learn the lessons being taght and take each lesson to heart. otherwise your gonna be one hurtin unit. i suppose i shouldnt be talkin about it considering i wasnt there. i do know that next time i probably wont be going. i'll make sure i have to work and not tell any one at work about it so they dont bug out about it. I'd rather not go any way. I promised sadie i would go and i didnt because i was being stupid and didnt get my math grade up. Since the begining of the year i have been lacking in motivation. it's just not going well i guess. But I can say that i wouldve enjoyed going for some other reasons even though it probably wouldnt have been that way any way. its my fault im so dumb, lazy, and any other possible word for my self i can think of but cant really type for various reasons. i ruin every thing and i'm just not responsible enough to really do any thing that would benefit me. it doesnt matter any more because it is all over.

Uhhhh.... I cant really explain. crap!

I cant explain it. but i have thought that making friends is easier because when you lose a friend it hurts. i dont think we can all exactly say that we doing perfectly fine because there really is almost not possible fotr alot of us. i think if we can manage our lives so we are comfortable and not out of control then we should be able to succeed in our adult life. I guss it doesnt matter at this point. but i think it only matters if you care.

REALLY?!!!!! C0me 0n n0w. n0t c00l

How lame is when you can walk into a door you know is there? Not exactly the most entertaining but i do think it is easy to relive those moments when they tend to happen over and over again. All i need i the camera *click* But on the bright side i still havnt learned my lesson. Oh yeah and about prom i really cant say if im going or not but i would really like to. But i first need to get my math grade up by thursday. i really think that i need to work on getting to bed earlier because i dont seem to have any luck staying awake during first hour math. and whos idea was that any way? i dont think it was that great an idea to put math first hour when nine and half times out ten you will find at least four of them asleep during their math class in the morning. Its not exactly right to do that to us. i can already name four people who where asleep in my first hour math this morning. If i only wasnt having such a hard time with things and my ex. Next time i see him though i dont think i'll give him the chance to explain why he hit me. i think im going to straight up lay him out. BATLLE OF THE EX'S!!!!!!!!!!!!! and watch out all who i swatching i dont want to throw him into your knees. That crap hurts.

WOW! i have so much to talk about and im only in second hour. haha i wonder what kind of ear full poor ms barger is going to get. i dont know i dont usually plan what to say. But you know i think it mostly has to do with the fact that i am a sixteen year highschool girl and am more than likely going to talk than write but thyen again i dont really converse with the overly social kind of teen. Not that we have to many of them only because there are enough kids here that we can all say we're friends but dont only because we "claim cliqs" whatever people are naturally not going to like other people because of some dumb lame reason that no one really seems to get over. if any one could really ever get over then i think we wont have as many stuck up, snobby arrogant jerks.

And now for ex boyfriends and ex girlfriends. do tyou think that its not going to hppen? Believe it or not it is going to happen but i dont think thats a reason to A. talk crap about them behind their back. B. Hit them. C. Or try to insult them in public. Yes i am talking about the only two ex boyfriends i have that i dont at least talk to. Like when you walk out of class one thing you dont want to hear from an ex is that your not human and your ugly. All i have to say tp that is kiss it. What ever you say is not going to bug me. for what ever reason you still havnt let the fact that i broke up with you go is not going to change that fact. yes i broke up with you but i do feel that your overreacting and this crap talking me crap is going way to far. Its pretty bad that even my best friend thinks so. How ever when i was messaging you on myspace and i told you that i wanted to be you friend i wasnt lying. But you are pushing things way way to far. And that hitting thing just not cool. Do not doule up your fist to punch your ex unless your ready to take the consequences. from either her boyfriend or HER. My newest ex found this out the hard way. He punched me which i thank god he cant hit very hard only because when he hit me i wouldve been knocked a whole lot farther than i was. and i wouldnt have been able to judo him. flipping him when i was seeing double of every things was almost enough to make me sick. But still i thank god that he wasnt able to hit me any harder. But thats one of the thirteen golden rules for boys. Hitting is a felony. DON T DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! any way i have to get to my class work so i suppose ttyl and this.........

is to be continued.....

yeah.....

i wasnt entierly sure that the ipad was that great an idea any way. i mean i think they are kind pushing their luck with the ipad. i was reading this article on yahoo and they were bashing the ipad left and right. It was almost as bad as me bashing twilight. it was ridiculus when i saw that freaking movie i wanted to bash my brains in. and before the movies were even being thought of i was reading the books over and over. they were good, but when they came out with the movie it was smashed. and any one who thinks down on me i dont give a crap!!!!!!!!!!!!! i have found that i like seeing how things go for me, instead of some one telling me what to do. i will do what i want when i want and "any one in power" has no right. it must be human nature to want power and be greedy cuz thats how this country and every other country is worked. strong ideals i know. but i dont care. i will continue thinking that any one who tries running my life doesnt deserve it. ALL TEACHERS..... i have a job and dont get off until late. you dont like i dont care. ms vader i dont approve.


.......Any way i just kinda think that people are expecting to much of a tiny little electronic and it just doesnt seem to be working very well. If you dont like it dont get it. I dont want one so im not getting one. i dont have to have it because it's new and every one has one. That kind of ideal is lame. plus there really isnt much it has that i need. i looks cool but i dont have time for it. those who do have entirly way to much free time. I just like the ipod because it's simple and i can drone out my nagging mother and cry baby dad. and that woukld be how i get through being at home. That ipad thing is a little wierd but it looks like there a quite a few people who like and so if they like i wont stop them.